Some People Just "Can't"

Okay. Time for the first ever fully-in-English entry.


I know, some people just can't accept the concept of crush. I have been one of them once, but time changes.

Before having a crush myself, I always thought that it is so weird to like someone who may never see you at all in their own life, even if you approach them quite a lot of time.

The first crush I've ever remember was when I'm in form 2. Seriously, it's a CRUSH okay? No one can stop anyone from crushing on people. When it starts, you can't say no at all. I don't believe anyone had never had a crush in their life.

Since the first crush, I may have up to 20 crushes now. [Hey, please. Crush! Not love! We'll talk about love later.] And most of their starts with "A". No one knows why. There's no explanation about it in any book. Go Google on books to get the definitions of crush. You won't find any with the explanation to my situation. And why "A"? Where're the other 25 letters? I like Q more. Believe me, I'm collecting names with Qs to be inserted into my writings.

Crush may grow into love, but very few that I know passed until marriage. [Now I'm talking about love. Oh, writing, okay? Don't be a nerd, please! And this does not include family matter.]

For the whole lifetime, the nearest feeling to love that I've ever been in is for one particular person only. Just one. And I only realise it after he left. [Nope! I've never been in relationship with a boy. Not me.] I've never have any strength to express my feelings to anyone by mouth. No and never.

This is the way I tell people what I feel. Through my writings. Everything I've written are my dreams and my life. My feelings, my opinions. I need to share but I don't believe in people I actually know. Never. It's better talking to strangers because most of them will forget the story in 5 minutes. Everyone has their own story to tell so do I!

And, please. Do I have to explain twice about crush?

Think again.

NoteBook:
1. I don't talk nonsense all the time so please chew before you swallow.
2. Yeah, I know you'll know if I'm talking to you.You tried to get me talking in your comment form. It's so obvious .
3. I've lots of scandals on that carpet, and lots of crushes too. Just because I seem to be very close to you that you've detected my style of talking, and somehow you know I've had crush on you, you conclude that I'm gonna be attached forever.
4. I'm the kind of girl who remember events. Talk about something, and I'll tell the most friendly memory of it. Don't ever think you're so special, please. I treat everyone almost the same. Even the first love. Darling, sayang, dear. Those are my words when I'm talking. I'm used to it but I don't think I've ever used those on any of my crushes. None, I'm telling you. Do I have to use them on you to tell that you're ordinary? Don't force me to make you vomit, please.